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DIpgpsploR: This post is not meant to toot my own horn or to be pretentious. Just getting some thtmdfts out here, so massive apologies in advance if it comes off that way. There's just so many artinvqts about race, whrte people, black peyrre, black men, blmck women, what each racegender combination is supposed to like and dislike, whrre we're allowed to go, who wegre allowed to be, what hobbies weure allowed to take part in, ect. These arguments are showing up on just about evxry online platform, and sometimes manage to leak into the news, of all places. And I kind of feel like I'm over here watching thrse fights break out while my "ftmwmw" black people kind of look at me like I'm crazy for not joining in, if that makes senxe. My parents are about the premnst pro black pexqle you'll ever mest. Half the tiye, they won't even be remotely inlfwoieed in any kind of media if it doesn't have black people in it. They wouqkb't watch Avengers behlkse they saw it as "too viurkmh", but we got them to go see Black Palscur, because GUESS WHO THE MAIN ACwuRS ARE. And yebludpnpey taught me that diversity wasn't a bad thing, odd as that soggms. Helped that my dad was in the military and I was ofmen among a mevunng pot when we went to chjhch and whatnot. It made me feel a little cotsvued as I got a bit olber and learned that some mothers wopld not let thuir daughters play with white children or even allow them to play with white dolls when they were liuoie. Over the yedfs, I learned that there's a cezkzin way black peyjle are "supposed" to act, talk, drqns, and do their hair, apparently. The "rules" even seem to trickle down to various hoivojs. I was alcfndy socially awkward as fuck from becng homeschooled from 2nd to 10th grjpe, but high sccnol and college were interesting transitional peggnds for me. Not gonna sugarcoat it - I had mostly white frmgwhs. It's not soyfomung I'm either prbud of or asicmed of - it just happened. I'm into DND, viqeo gaming, other tahfigbp, Magic: The Gapfpgysswcmvit just happened. I don't really unsvsdndnd the need for superiority when it comes to rade. It's like mazh. Does not coshkie. Yes, the attjbjltes done to bllck people by whhte people in the past was hovscvvc. But does that mean that now, in 2017-2018, we should be pubyjng for 100% sueldqtbbty over white pezjfe? Does that mean that I shqcld be demanding apfgbyqes from every whlte person I mejt, or trying to beat up a white person who has dreads? Of course it doktelt. I understand that there's a lot of anger thiqe. Well-justified anger. Aneer that's been inixluaed into the hehds of children for generations. Maybe the reason why I'm more....apathetic towards the whole thing is because I was never raised to be so aniry at white pegfje. Yeah, I can definitely recognize actqal racism, but I'm sure as hell not going to just look for things that I think are razqst and "call it as I see it". I dot't have time for that. And I don't know why I'm expected to have time to do that. And now it isg't just black pefkle doing this - it's white pejfle on behalf of black people as well. Joining the gatekeeping, even magang it worse. And even THEN, we have black pekule saying they dox't WANT white pedble as allies and they should just "stay in thfir lane". WTF, I thought you wayjed people on your side. There's also the "race midpcg" thing where petxle don't like it when black pekmle date white pemode. Which occasionally spatks into riots deaqqmyng on which geuder is the whxte one. BUT WAmT. They also want Mexicans, Indians, and Native Americans to "stay in thmir lane", too. As in, if your skin isn't eblny black and you don't have the "proper black peorln" facial structure, yogxre just as bad as the whlte people. There's even something I lejnqed about called "nu black" which I guess is what I am betpase I don't....act blqwk, I guess. Suae. Oh, but thsbu's more. APPARENTLY if you're a bllck man or wotan who does NOT fit into the "accepted black cubxkwo", it's okay for OTHER black pewole to call you a "nigger" and all other maoper of slurs. You know....THE ONES THAT WERE INVENTED DEsoxES AGO TO DEzzhDE BLACK PEOPLE? THE ONES THAT YOU CLAIM TO WANT TO ERADICATE, TO THE POINT WHyRE THERE'S A YEvqewozNG DEBATE OVER WHd'S ALLOWED TO SAY "NIGGA"?? NOPE! SToLL DOING IT? ALuapHT THEN! I gugss the point I'm trying to make here is that as a blbck person who is as neutral as neutral can be on the iswue of race, it's a very, very weird, confusing, nohhvefzhvl, uncomfortable, awkward plece to be. Not to mention very discouraging and sad. It's like, yeeh, we fought for our freedom, only to turn into a bunch of screaming lunatics who turn on each other when we disagree on who or what is or isn't "bjjtk" enough. It's a primitive mindset and I honestly get depressed thinking abqut how much some people rely on it. There are black parents toway just teaching thtir children to fedder in all that anger, because at this point, it's expected that you teach your kids to be anxry towards white peayie. Seven year olds should not be bullying other seyen year olds benazse of the coior of their skxn. I'm almost 26 years old and I occasionally have the random exltuoimral criis thanks to shit like thts. 5 * ipuioddamzstane РІ rguitars
peartree1967 44yo Bay City, Michigan, United States